Lessons I’ve learned…

Lessons I’ve learned over the years, worth sharing.

1. Trust is paramount and extremely fragile, it should be safeguarded at all cost.

2. Honesty is the path to trust, with out it you cannot build.

3. Complacency WILL eventually kill every relationship. And it is a long slow painful tortorous death, worse then dying.

4. Words, when said, cannot be taken back, and can be sharper then any knife. The difference, the wounds they leave may last a lifetime, and still never heal. Beware what comes out of your mouth. 

5. There is always some Truth even in jest.  Jest cautiously.

6. Anything worth having, is worth the fight.

Lost

“Illusions commend themselves to us because they save us pain and allow us to enjoy pleasure instead.  We must therefore accept it without complaint when they sometimes collide with a bit of reality against which they are dashed to pieces.”   

I miss you

I miss us

I miss the intimacy, the connection

I feel lost, alone, wandering

where we went?  How it got so far off track?

that fight or flight syndrome kicking in….

Its sad, when there was/is such potential

Though the words are’nt often said, when they are,

its like opening a raw wound that then seeps around eveything else in its way

polluting it

I miss it…..I need it….I long for it…..Crave it….

When??

If today was your last day….

My best friend gave me the best advice He said each day’s a gift and not a given right Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind And try to take the path less traveled by That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day And tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life What’s worth the prize is always worth the fight Every second counts ’cause there’s no second try So live like you’ll never live it twice Don’t take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day And tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce of memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you’re dreamin’ of? Swear up and down to God above That you’d finally fall in love If today was your last day If today was your last day Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart? You know it’s never too late to shoot for the stars Regardless of who you are So do whatever it takes ‘Cause you can’t rewind a moment in this life Let nothin’ stand in your way Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day

And tomorrow was too late…..

WHAT WOULD YOU DO??

 ME: I’d erase all the lies and deceptions and live it in truth and honesty.

For all you listeners out there….

Exercise and water can reverse most damage you may have done to your body.  Arthritis, heart disease, diabetes……

Step Dad had an unexpected heart attack. He is only 46.  They told him he has full blown diabetes, wasnt expecting that either.  Been in Washington DC at Washington Adventist Hospital for so long now I feel like part of the staff, lol.

However he is going to be ok, eventually.  With meds, and a strict lifestyle change.

Has been a huge eyeopener for myself and master.

Life is short, and you never know when it will be your turn, are you ready??? Are you doing all you can to keep yourself healthy and the wolves at bay??

We have started.  Lets hope its not too late. 

Have a good day. That is all.

The Measures of a Master….

 

 A Man who displays sensitivity will be a Master who is sensitive to you.

A Man who displays humility will be a Master that will show you respect.

A Man who is not afraid to cry will be a Master who understands your tears.

A Man who is quiet will be a Master that will hear your quietest whisper,

A Man who knows fear will be a Master who will not leave you to face yours alone.

A Man who will listen to a child will be a Master who will always work to understand your words.

A Man who can stand alone will be a Master who will not crush you under His weight.

A Man who controls Himself with ease will be a Master with the ability to control you in the same way.

A Man who does not have to prove His point will be a Master with many worthwhile points to share.

A Man who never makes demands will be a Master who treasures anything you give.

A Man who doesn’t run after you will be a Master you will never need to run away from.

A Man who is calm will be a Master who can weather your storms.

A Man who has walked the path to peace will be a Master able to guide you along that path.

A Man who does not shout will be a Master who will never deafen you.

A Man who knows Himself will be a Master who will have time to know you.

A Man with an open mind will be a Master who never stops learning.

A Man who never stops learning will be a Master who never stops growing.

A Man who always seeks to be the best He can be for you is the only Man truly worthy of being called Master.

 

Drama….

I am just not a drama girl, dont like it , cant deal with, would rather take a good ole fashioned ass whippin then have to deal with drama.  Especially when its everyone elses drama that gets thrown on my plate or they try to drag me into it. This would refer to work, grow up for gods sake, whatever happened to team work?

Kids are gone now, but that in and of itself is drama too, cause you never know whats really be said behind your back.

Cant we all just live and serve in peace?  What happened to the love man?

Feeling very out of sorts, and on edge. definitely not good for the submissive soul.

ltr.

Our Summer Visitors……

Man it feels like they just left…and here it is time for them again, our summer visitors, My neice and nephew.   I love having them, I love them, but it gets harder and harder every year to entertain them.  Seems like wev’e done everything there is to do in my small rural wv community, except swim, and then that only goes so far too with a now 13 and 17 year old.

So because of that and the fact we only have dialup, omg, the world will end, it gets to be a bit stressful, emotionally and mentally that is.  And it is far worse on Master who is wonderful with them but has an entirely different view and take on how children are supposed to be….

I try to give them the things i did as a child, like long bike trips, and hiking and swiming, movies, just spending good ole fashioned one on one time with them, but they are teenagers now and while they like it a little, the whole week filled with it makes them nuts too…lol.

Anybody got any ideas on how we can entertain them?? Pls feel free to share.

And Master I promise to try and not let the stress overrun me and onto you.    Love you.

Kitten

Simplicity……………aaaaahhhhhhhhh

The beauty and context wherein this statement was made is now forever emblazzened in my brain……

“Is a strong woman that let’s a man lead her”

Shudders………

 

Why, Why, Why,

I’m stuck on the why’s of life. Why do we get up everyday and do the same thing day after day after day, and have meaningless conversations with the same people over and over again.  What is it all for? And I don’t mean the crap about heaven and god and all that, I believe all that, but in the grand scheme of TODAY where does it fit? I’m bored, why? I have a great job, I like it well enough, bills are paid, not a lot left over but it could be worse. So why? Why do I feel like this? What is it all for? And why is it that the people we love the most ends up being the very people we hurt first and harshest? It makes no sense to me whatsoever. Damn this world, damn my mind, and damn this whole damn thing………. Got answers???? Let’s hear em. I’m tired of the this big the cycle of life, I wanna know the purpose, why why why why why why ……..

Getting Old…..

Ive been away taking care of my grandpappy in the hospital/icu…..this isnt the first time, and i hope he will be ok so that if there is a next time………However, i would just like to say, I DONT WANT TO GET OLD……moreso then that I dont want to lose my quality of life.  So those of you who are reading this or listening….exercise is for more then just your looks…..I dont care what you do , but you need to start now taking care of your heart if you expect or want it to take care of you in the end, otherwise you will be here, with your somebody special, taking care of you, bathing you, wipin your butt, helping you eat and worrying that they are hurting you.  I love him and would do anything to help him, but dear god, I dont want to be that way.  Master you have been wonderful as well, lifting and moving and driving 5 hours one way almost every day just to make sure Im ok and to help pap feel safe, even with any or all the issues we have, you are the most dependable man in that respect and I love you for it.    Love Kitten.